To celebrate finishing my diploma, K and I went to Toronto to the Oasis Aqua Lounge. It’s an adult spa/sex club that is very woman-oriented, clean, and comfortable. We’ve been once before and loved it, and I’ve been super eager to go back!
Being in a sex club is intimidating for most people, I think. But being plus size, it’s probably extra scary. I admit, I started comparing myself to the other women as soon as I got in there.
“Oh, they’re all skinnier than me!”
“Oh, they’re all younger than me!”
”Oh, they’re all prettier than me!”
I could feel myself starting to get uncomfortable, even with K standing lovingly beside me.
So I forced myself to really look at the bodies around me, not just the ones my Self-Concious Brain was immediately noticing.
And a lot of the people there actually were the same size as me, or bigger. And there were definitely people there who were older than me. And you know what?
They all looked like they were having fun. And that was what made them look the most attractive.
There was a girl much, much larger than me, and I thought she was gorgeous. You know why? Because she had this huge ear to ear grin and was laughing brightly while she swam in the pool.
And there was a woman who was at least twenty years older than me, and I thought she was gorgeous. You know why? Because she looked so relaxed and at ease with herself while she rested, nude, on a lounge chair.
And yes, the young girls with their societally perfect bodies and immaculate make up also looked gorgeous. But the ones that looked best were the ones who were laughing, smiling, and chatting away.
HAVING FUN was the best way to look good, not having a tiny waist.
So I took a deep breath, stripped off my lingerie, and climbed in the pool with K. Pretty quickly I could feel myself relaxing in the cool water and warm sun, and my own grin growing.
I felt Happy. I felt Relaxed. And I felt s little bit Gorgeous, too. 🙂
My Body Loves Me 